On Wednesday I had my follow up with my radiation oncologist, Dr. Conrad. I met with her and her fellow and got a full physical exam which was good - I always feel better when someone else does it even though I am doing monthly self exams. They asked me a bunch of questions too about possible symptoms I have, including bone pain, night sweats, unexplained weight loss, etc. I believe these are questions related to metastatic breast cancer symptoms and luckily I don't have any. Coincidentally I also saw an article about these symptoms posted on one of my groups so I will share it here for reference.
http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/316558.php
It wasn't a difficult appointment by any means but for some reason I was emotional being there. I guess just going back to the hospital will always be a trigger. I remember sitting in that room when I had just done my first chemo, and I met Dr. Conrad for the first time. I got great news that day because my other scans were all clear. It isn't a bad memory but I remember how awful I felt symptom wise, I was so nauseous and tense with worry about everything I was going through, until I got that good news. It's been quite the roller coaster and I am still reflecting on it all.
I hope that the follow ups get easier but who knows. I know from other survivors I have come to know, they feel much the same. Its like you hold your breath with every physical exam, every mammogram, etc. I don't think it ever really goes away. You know first hand how quickly things can change.
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