Hope

I’m attending a writing class through wellspring - it’s called writing your way to inner peace.

It’s focused on poems and last time we were given this prompt to use to write one:  “I know that hope is”

Here’s what I wrote

I know that hope is my friend and ally

When I darkness or despair of life’s challenges I seek it out

It is always there behind the shadows

It just needs to be summoned.

And it comes to me like the sun as it rises in the morning

Beckoning me to come out of the dark

And believe in the future

Where there is life there is hope

Where there is love and gratitude there is hope

Pick it up and hold it like a stone in your palm

And carry it with you always

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I really enjoy this writing class and hearing everyone’s poems. we had a lot of similar themes and it helps to feel bonded and less alone.

One woman had a line that hit me - about holding on to hope with clenched fists! Yeah baby!!

Radiation #1

It feels familiar. I’ve been here before.

30 sessions in 2017 on the right side of my body. I was so happy to rip the green card up by the end.

Did I feel a bit nauseous being handed the green card again? Yes I sure did.

Here we go left side. This time…

The curiosity is gone. I know what to expect. Maybe that makes it harder?

The positive thing to note is this is the last leg of this marathon.This is my insurance policy.

I know I can do it. I will go on. 💪🏻🙏🏻

Sentinel node biopsy results!

 I waited til after the christmas holidays and my birthday to check the pathology online.  on Jan 6th, I woke up and pulled it up on my phone to see - all lymph nodes negative baby!!!!

I saw my surgical oncologist today who confirmed this news :)

I am soooo relieved and happy!

I was holding so much tension in my body for the past few weeks - I didn't even realize it.

Jeff looked at me after I saw the results and said - you look different - relieved :)

They took 6 lymph nodes which seems like alot! my surgeon said, they have to remove anything that gets the blue dye. He was a bit frustrated he had to take so many too.  He hugged me when we told me the news. 

even though I saw the report, I had to hear it from him.

feeling extremely grateful right now and the end is getting so close.

radiation will start this month. I see my radiation oncologist Friday to get that going.

for now - super super happy!