It tears you down, and builds you back up

Yesterday wasn't the best day.  I felt a lot of fatigue and frustration and sadness.  So sick of being in treatment! I know the end is near, but it is hard sometimes to keep going and maintain the positivity.

In the afternoon, I received a surprise package from Jeff's aunt Patty, that turned my mood around.
She knitted me this beautiful "Prayer shawl"!  and also sent me a pair of warm and cozy socks and a beautiful card.  It was such a surprise and also really touched me!  Just what I needed.
I love the shawl and it keeps me warm while I am resting in the living room after radiation.

The day reminded me of something Shannen Doherty had said in one of her interviews.  "Cancer tears you down, and builds you up, and it tears you down and builds you up."

I have had ups and downs but all along the way, the consistent thing I have felt is love and kindness from my support system. It keeps me going.

I saw this other quote on Facebook today that articulates where I am at:

"Sometimes the strength within you is not a big fiery flame for All to see.  It's just a tiny spark that whispers,  Keep going. You've got this."