Living Life Hard

I feel like in the last couple of months I've been "living life hard."    Hence why my blogging has slowed down!  What I mean by that is I am throwing myself into life again.  My new job has been very busy but I absolutely LOVE it.  I've been building relationships with my team and management and everyone is just awesome.  It is definitely a work hard, play hard mentality which is great with me.   I am surrounded by inspiring, smart people who care about their work - and it is contagious.

On the weekends I've been spending time with family and friends, and am just enjoying life and being social again.  I went out for a girls night last night and I was thinking of how different things are from last October when I was still recovering from chemo.    I had a moment of feeling so, so grateful.

I am seizing every opportunity to have fun.

Along those lines, Jeff and I booked Jamaica for my 40th birthday in January.  But it felt a bit far away, and I do feel I need a bit of time off sooner.  Since the gradual return and my new job, I haven't taken any time off and I want to make sure I am still taking care of me!  So we booked a last minute trip to Nassau for mid November.  I can't wait.  I've never been to the Bahamas and I am excited to experience something new.

My body is tired.  From working hard and living hard.  I know I need to schedule more down time.  Part of my feels like I still have a ticking clock though - and I just want to fit as much in as I can.  I WANT to live hard.  I want to grab onto life and enjoy the moments and experiences as much as possible.

Cancer doesn't give you a heads up that it is coming (or coming back).  I am reminded often that it can be devastating.  Other family and friends get diagnosed and I am reminded.  Gord Downie passes away from cancer and I am reminded.  I have flashbacks to my experience, or get overwhelmed with fear of recurrence (yes this still happens often!) and I am reminded.

I can't say it enough that the most important lesson from having cancer is to be grateful for each day - and do what you can to make a lot of good days happen!   Live a life of contentment. Create those experiences that fill you up, that give you happiness.