The love hate of chemo- it’s saving my life

When I found out I had to do chemo again - I was pretty devastated. It is such a tough journey for so many reasons. You feel so tired and unwell, you lose your hair (even with a cold cap it thins) and you don’t feel like yourself. The meds make you bloated and swollen. Your immune system is garbage and it limits your social life. These are just a few things that chemo does.

When I found out - I wrote a list of everything I fucking hate about fucking chemo! And I burnt it.

It did feel good to get that all out.

Shortly after I made a list of why I am grateful for chemo and cancer treatment. And that’s what I’d rather share here.

I am grateful for chemo that will heal my body and rid it from cancer now and in the future 

I am grateful my cancer was caught early

I am grateful for more time, I’m not done yet!!

I am grateful for a pic line that saves my veins

I am grateful for an excellent medical team 

I am grateful for microblading and cold caps 

I am grateful for anti nausea drugs 

I am grateful treatment is temporary and won’t be forever

I am grateful for my circle of support

I am grateful for being who I am now - strong, resilient and focused on me!

I am grateful I can ask for what I need this time

I am grateful that chemo is saving my life!!