Tuesday, 30 August 2016

Side effects - chemo #5

Well in the end I haven't got off scotfree with the paclitaxel. I felt decent on the Friday after and I thought maybe just maybe I would be one of those lucky anomalies that would sail through!  The first side effect was a flushed face on Friday afternoon, but that went away by Saturday.  I gave myself the neulasta shot on Friday around 3pm, and the bone and muscle pain started with a vengeance Saturday morning. I can't really describe it other than it is similar to a flu achiness but more intense, throbbing and relentless. I took regular Tylenol Saturday but by Sunday and with no end in sight I went to get the Tylenol 3 prescription filled. Those did help a bit more but honestly it felt like nothing would alleviate the pain. Luckily by Monday the pain was fading and I don't have any today. Today I am just super fatigued, and don't feel like doing much of anything. I know the fatigue is cumulative so I just have to try to do my best.  I've had some tingling in my feet and hands but it has been fleeting so far.
38 days from now is my last chemo. So a week or two after that, I can say goodbye to all the horrendous side effects, and be on my way to true recovery and surgery.  It really isn't that far away. I know I can do it. This is after all just a bump in the road and a small blip in order for me to live another 40 years.

Friday, 26 August 2016

Chemo #5 complete!

Yesterday was chemo #5 and the first of my final four cycles, of the new drug paclitaxel.   We got there at 8 and my blood was taken quickly, and I noticed my blisters from the picc line allergy had all healed :) I also saw the doctor pretty promptly too. He did a physical exam and confirmed again the lump has shrunk and could barely feel anything. He said I am having a better than average response to the chemo and that the lump has shrunk enough for surgery but we will continue all chemo to prevent reoccurrence.  We talked about side effects of the taxol and he said bone pain is possible, because of how this particular chemo interacts with the neulasta/white blood cell shot. Not everyone gets it but time will tell after I take my shot around 3pm today. He said I can take regular Tylenol but also gave me a prescription for Tylenol 3 just in case it gets bad. 

We waited awhile to go in to start the treatment but while we were waiting the genetics counsellor came to give me a copy of my report showing I don't have the BRCA gene.  She said that there could be an opportunity down the road to do further genetic testing for cancer and for all dna but not sure if I would want to know anything and everything that could go wrong with me! I already know based on family history I need to monitor for colon cancer.

Soon after I went in for treatment. It was funny because two of the nurses were kind of fighting over who would do my chemo. I have worked with both of them before. The nurse Nancy was like "that's my patient!" Lol but in the end Ann did it. They are both very kind to me and I want to give them some kind of gift when the cycles are all over. 

For this one I don't have to take any pills before but they gave 3 things via iv, an anti nausea, the steroid I had take orally before and benedryl to prevent any allergic reaction. The benedryl knocked me out!! I dozed for a bit in the chair. Those took about half an hour and then chemo started. This one is much longer, took 3 hours to go in. We had a long day at the hospital but I had brought snacks and lunch and watched Netflix on my iPad so it wasn't horrible.  I started having hot flashes by the afternoon though.

Today I actually feel ok. No nausea which is awesome!!! I took Mimi for a walk. Time will tell with the bone pain. I also may get tingly hands and feet.

Praying for little to no side affects if possible. But I feel hopeful for some reason. I feel like this will be easier than the AC cycles. I got this!! 62.5 percent done chemo, and my last cycle is October 6 which isn't too far away!

Monday, 22 August 2016

Cottage break

Jeff and I had a peaceful and relaxing break at the cottage. I loved spending time by the lake, reading or just enjoying the quiet. It was just the break I needed before the second half of chemo. Praying that I have the resilience to do this. I know I will get through it. Digging deep again. 










Tuesday, 16 August 2016

This guy

Today we have been married 13 years. We have been through so much together and more than ever our vow of in sickness and in health is being tested. Jeff has been amazing through all of this, I don't know what I would do without him.